This Life

Hmm.. What a life!

I write this not because I’m not satisfied about my life. I do appreciate the life I have now. I have parent who loves me much, sisters and brothers and best friends who have made my life more colorful.

This story has been started about eleven years ago, but I won’t tell you a lot now.

In 2000 my father passed away because of heart attack. I was so sad and crying along day. It was not a long time from that day I should continue my study to boarding school. I thought I would be fine and I was fine. I met many friends from another district in my province. The most important thing was that I was happy.

Two years later, my mom visited me in the school. She brought the news that I never imagined before. She said she would get married with someone I didn’t know. I didn’t know how he looks, whether he was a good man or not. Can you imagine? I objected extremely, but my mom didn’t listen to my opinion.

In short, I don’t get along with him until now. There is too much his side I don’t really like. It is not because I don’t respect him as my step father now, but it is more how we see the life, how we communicate each other, and how we face the problems. I can’t tell this to my mom, it will break my mom’s heart and she will be disappointed. All I can do is keep silent although it will blow my brain out.

I think there is no much change in my life with or without him. I don’t speak to him if it’s not important, I will avoid him to be in the same room as me. Call me selfish! I don’t really care. ^^

And now I miss my father a lot. It has been 12 years since you left me I can be strong and will be strong.

Hmm.. What a life! ^^